Your apology is accepted, although I've forgotten everything that you said. I, too, was frustrated at first with the change.
Change is hard. Glad to hear that you are getting back into quilting and have completed a project. Grief sometimes lingers for a long time, it never goes away, just gets a little easier to cope with. Hope you and yours have a blessed Christmas and New Year, and know that your loved one is watching and is glad to see that you are getting back to the things that you enjoyed in the past.
Sue