I'm in a similar mood, no desire to decorate. I offer a suggestion, sit down, watch the old favorite holiday movies and maybe the seasons joy will find you. I do relate, life gets hectic now and family gatherings may create stress. I hope as the 25th approaches that your heart will be lifted. Go buy something special for you that's been on your list forever. I had a friend that did that for her birthday and Christmas-she was never disappointed with what she got.