I am so glad to hear that you are pulling yourself up by the bootstraps and forging ahead. That is all we can do. I lost my husband almost 15 years ago to cancer, after a valiant fight. He finally decided he had enough and gave in to it. All we can do now is go on as best we can. Sewing is my therapy too; so glad I have something to occupy my brain. I hope you know we are all your friends and will be here for you whenever you have a "bad day".