I find that when my mind goes nuts.. i get into a good book... i am in the worst ,quilting/crafting , slump of my life, because there is some pretty bad and stressful stuff going on... none of which i have control over... so "hanging out" on QB trolling the blogs for free patterns and tutorials for all sorts of items is a life saver for me.... Soooooooooo,,, try to get your mind set into retirement... they will make it without you whether the "new person is good or not"... and your life is about to open up to wonderful things for you... Just look for them... Bless you and know you are not alone.... hugs Barbara