last year was a year of loss for me, so i've had a taste of what you're going thru. i will hold you in my thoughts, prayers and heart. friends here on the board are still helping me heal, and we will do the same for you! just pm one of us and we will listen and do our best to soothe and comfort. healing takes time. i still want to cry sometimes, and shout and curse, and just give up, but i don't. mostly because i have friends here, and family that help keep me centered. i wish you strength and faith, and you will come through this. welcome home! so sorry for your loss.