I finally left the guild I was an active member in. There were about 130+ active members. A very big guild and very active in the community. Most of them were people who were retired or in a position where they didn't work and so could spend a lot of time working for the guild. I couldn't volunteer for a lot of stuff and felt really out of place and felt I was not contributing enough for the benifits I received. Over time it got very uncomfortable even being there. I am now a happy independent quilter.
peace