I spent 3 days in the hospital because of me buying my longarm. I know that it sounds funny, but its not every day that you spend that kind of money. I got mine in jan. and its now april. and I am making a quilt for my mother who will be 90 in july. ( i never did things small) Keep in mind that she is one who believes ALL quilts need to be hand quilted. The more I use mine(far from perfect) the better I feel. This is also my retirement that will be supporting me as well. I can really feel your feelings on what you are going through as well. The store i got mine from is there no matter how busy she is, she always has time for me. I now feel that I have known her all my life, and she gives me all the encouragement that I need as ell. Just hang in there, Im there for you as well. Karen Baker.