Sorry to hear you're having a bad day. When that happens, it's best to step away for awhile. I had a similar problem with a border not that long ago. It was a directional print and I didn't want the seam noticeable. I ended up having to cut a chunk out of the middle of a 1/2 yard piece in order to match it up. It was a pain, but the finished result is great - hardly notice the seam. Take a nice break for yourself and try again later. :)