You are dealing with a lot of very emotional issues right now. Your every day life has been not only challenging but it sounds like you are trying to spread your emotions in several directions, not to mention that your normal routine has been interrupted. Like me, your escape has been the comfort and distraction of books. That is OK. I often find it helpful to make a list of priorities and keep it handy.You may even rearrange the order as you look at the whole picture. If helpful, find someone to talk to, a good trusted friend, your pastor or a professional. You may just have to express your anger and pain out loud. Family, of course, comes first, forget the quilting for now. We all will be thinking about you.