you know, i always sound like the villain, or the voice of doom, but which part of 'MANDATORY' do you long beachers not understand??? god sends you a lot of chances to help yourself, but part of it is up to you! i am terrifically worried and fearful for your predicament. man, i'd be heading in a car going west! please, reconsider! you're too young to die! prayers being fervently and frequently said!!