Phannie, so sorry for your loss. I lost two of my girls this year. They were both fourteen and died of kidney failure. They were the biggest part of my household. One was a mischevous girl who kept us on our toes and the other was the door greeter, the talker and the old mama to all of us. I know how you feel and I still have to cry sometimes. No shame in loving a great animal and missing her.