I too, lost my husband coming up on four years in March...so you have my sympathy and my empathy...we were married for forty years as well. I have some of his clothes I just couldn't part with but didn't know what I wanted to do with them; I think you've given me an idea! Thank you for giving me something to think about doing!
And things WILL get better...it just takes awhile, and to be honest, "awhile" sometimes feels like "forever" but it does happen, I promise. Will say a prayer for you...