that is exactly how I felt so I managed to take out a low rate loan for a long arm...I would not have been able to do it without the long arm or pantovision....they say if you can draw, you can fmq...well, I can't draw a stick figure!...but I can trace and that's how I get to do my quilting and love it...I hope you find a solution that works for you...there are quilt shops that will train you and rent time if you want to see how you feel about it...