Your story touched my heart, girl. When I feel afraid - I redirect myself & get busy. Quilting is a productive endeavor & we get to play with His joyful colors. Today's sunset in OK must have been a part of heaven. When I get "there" I am going to see colors I've never seen here. I believe God is GREAT! If I got all those goodies, I'd feel like I'd won 1st prize, a blue ribbon & and a monumental blessing from above. You are in a state of grace. Hugs!