I started FMQ about a year ago. Being on a fixed retirement budget I could not afford to quilt by checkbook. I find that most of the time it is relaxing for me. I did discover that I had to learn how to set my top and bottom tension according to the thread and it became much easier and more fun. I watch Leah Day every chance I get and have gotten some nice ideas to practice on by watching tutorials on e subject. I admit, it has taken me almost the full year to build my self confidence but I find I am now getting compliments on my work. Don't force it, listen to some music while practicing. I have a friend who listens to audio books while fmq'ing. Good luck, I hope you learn to enjoy it.