Pat, I too am very sorry to hear about your loss. May you feel God's healing peace surround you and be comforted by memories that bring smiles instead of tears. The deepest pain of my life was when my dad passed, unfortunately it is something we all must travel through. The thought that helped me was remembering that I would not have felt the pain as deeply if the love had not been just as deep. He was worth my pain, if that makes sense.