I've been where you are, and it isn't fun. This year, I decided to have a "no fear year" with my quilting. I'm tired of trying to be perfect and feeling like I've failed. I've created several quilts that are for me, not for someone else. I'll look online at the way others quilt their quilts, and try to incorporate some of their quilting into mine. I've gotten lots of ideas online. Then I'll go to my machine and just try. No fear. I've shocked myself at how much fun I've had doing that! They may not start out looking great, but by the time I'm finished I've learned a new stitch pattern. These are my quilts, so they don't have to be perfect! Go ahead, give it a go! No fear! Here's one I played with. Just made it up as I went along. It turned out so well that I gave it to my granddaughter: