One day, you will get it. Just keep practicing. Some people learn quicker than others. But don't give up. Keep practicing on small things. You can also doodle the pattern you are trying to quilt on paper or a dry erase board. You will build a mental memory for it and it makes it alot easier to quilt. I bought a big dry erase board just for it. My mom bought a dvd to watch and it was by the pajama quilter. She is kinda fun to watch. I just spent time watching youtube videos.