I am sorry for your loss. He is with you always as look his memory is living on and your sharing him today with everyone. We also dont share gifts except stocking stuffers so that pressure is completely gone. Christmas eve is the special time for us. We eat whatever anyone wants. When the kids were little it could have been macaroni and cheese as they got the vote. Now its munchies, finger foods nothing formal at all. We turn off the house lights, lay on the floor under a blanket, close to the tree so its like being a kid again.. seeing things from that perspective that tree looks HUGE.. and we sing Christmas carols out of tune, totally blowing most of the words and making them up as we go and laughing a whole lot and just enjoying each other and the memories of what was before. I am almost 50 and I still look forward to this. So do my kids and the baby is now 18. Christmas is what you make it. I know you will make yours sparkle too.