I bought one many years ago, before the price skyrocketed. Not sure where I bought it, but I know it wasn't online, but in person at a LQS or quilt show. Use it all the time. And no, you can't have it, lol! That's one book I'll have 'till I die. (There are several others...) There is also "Blockbase", which has Barbara's blocks in it, too. It's software for use with EQ, but it doesn't have all the blocks in the book. I have both, and I still use the book.