Dublb, {[(Big HUGS)]} your way from the virtual RV. The "C" word is very scarey word to hear; when (not if, its when) I hear it I am heading to the Cancer Center advertized on TV..the holistic center . In 1930 there was a test made of terminal Cancer patients, treated with fresh fruit and vegetables daily and 50% beat the Cancer. Since my Father died of Cancer at 43 years old and Mother died at 63 years of Cancer, both colon cancer, I have followed a lot of the research being done. Due yourself a favor and call that 800 number listed in that ad on TV. They will help you to cope and understand better, so please call the experts on advice and help. My FIL was not a religious man but they help him with consulting phone call conversation, no charge. What do you have to lose by calling them?? Fight back for their sake and yours and peace of mind.