april, the most important thing is your out of the woods right now. Your eyesight is saved which is no way a small miracle right? you count on that vision!
I am also so sorry you will be blocked from hosting until you find those rows. I know you will they are right where you last left them. Get your mom or a friend to help you look. make it a small mission. We would so miss you if you didn't run another swap. I would offer but I get swamped with my own swap.. and this is a big one to run. I would surely lose half of them. I will cross my fingers you can locate them, over the winter and well we will not give up on you until you throw down your own flag. Then we will walk beside you and call you friend until you can come back with us.
Brat