Wow, you're really hard on yourself. Many people will not even attempt anything that hard! Chefs have to rinse and chop vegetables for YEARS before they're allowed to cook. Couture seamstresses have to do menial tasks before they even have a chance at making a garment. My sister looks at my quilts and asks, "Why would you put yourself through all that agony?" (She has trouble making decisions.) I just tell her that it's a creative outlet, AND that it's not brain surgery. If you make a mistake, no one will die! I really like your quilt (true) and I think you can finish/not finish it, and make a decision later. God bless.