i know the feeling justsome,my dad pass on xmas day ,it was very hard on me took yrs to really start enjoying xmas again ,but i had to my kids were young and it was'nt fair for them but time heals the heart ,now i don't really think about it because i know he,s in a better place ,and i have grandkids that keep me happy and busy ,i know time will heal you too ,have your big breakfast than go to the movies that,s what we do on xmas day