You sound really down on yourself, be kind. If someone else came to you with this scenario you would tell them the same thing. It takes time to get back in the swing of things when you have been away for awhile, I know I have just been through it myself. Take a deep breath and carry on. I am sure you can figure out how to save this quilt. I live just south of you, maybe it's the weather that is getting you down. (Lots of snow). Everything will be fine, just don't give up. We are here for you!