Are you doing FMQ on a DM? What kind of FMQ are you doing? IMHO- FMQ on a DM machine is HARD especially on a larger quilt. I do SID and stippling/meandering for FMQ. My attempts at other fancier quilting have not turned out really good. I know a quilter who has been quilting for 20+ years and usually only does SID. If she wants fancier quilting tem she sends it out to a LAQ. I personally like to keep my quilting to a mimium so the fabric and the pattern show better. Do not be so hard on yourself! you are probably better than you think!!1