i've done the same kind of thing my whole life. i'll find something that fascinates me, and i worry at it and work it to death. when i've either mastered it, or researched it to death, and i feel as though i "have it", i'm able to move on to something else. this has proved true with nearly everything i've ever set out to do. (luckily, i haven't mastered the marriage thing, so i'm still married to the original--and i still have all of my kids, too. i never gave even one of them away.) fill your life with the beloved bargello--and when you're done, you'll know.