When I first took up sewing [about fifty years ago!!] I made many of my wife's work uniforms. Our house had some of the nicest dust rags in our neighborhood until I finally made something that looked like I wanted it to look. I found the same to be true with my quilting. I worked with cheap fabric until I could get comfortable with point and fairly even seams. I didn't obsess about anything until I felt comfortable with it. By the time I had done a few fairly good quilt tops, I graduated to tying and then quilting them. Even though I am definitely self-taught, I think I'm getting pretty competent at this quilting thing. I still make a few very nice dust rags, though. Hang in there! You'll get more comfortable as you go along.