I know exactly what you are talking about. I am in the same boat. I am not original. I have to have directions and patterns, even tutorials. However, I've decided that's just me and that's okay. I can still create a quilt. I am doing the cutting, piecing and reverse sewing sometimes. I give birth to the quilt. I take it from the flat paper directions and make it into a work of art that can cover a loved one. Sometimes they are even impressed with my "creation"!