I know how you are feeling and I'm sorry for your loss. My husband and I are childless and Stitches (see my avatar) was like a fur covered son. It has been two years since he passed and I miss him like a family member. His bad weather jacket and collar hang in my closet. The quilt he slept on I washed, folded and it remains on the floor alongside my bed. Silly of me, but it makes me fell better.