Welcome! More than a few people are 'modifying' their Giant Scrappy Swoon (GSS) so you fit right in. We have
2 1/2", 3 1/2" now 4 1/2" so this will be great fun.
I work in healthcare (cardiac nurse) so deal with life & death on a regular basis which I think gives me quite a different perspective on things. I can tell you from my experience that many people simply cannot accept that death is part of life. I've learned to embrace that fact early on in my career.
I can also tell you that, for the little bit of 'control' we have in the matter - BTW, we're not in control - I know what I want and what I don't want when it comes to making choices and I strongly encourage everyone to have an Advanced Directive/Living Will well before you need to make those kinds of decisions. OK. I'll step off my soapbox now. . . .