First, let me tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I have a daughter named Kari, who is 38 years old, and I can't imagine your pain. I hope you can discover the pattern for this quilt as her colors are awesome together. I think that finishing this quilt in her memory will help you heal from such a tragic loss. I have found quilting got me through the loss of my 52 year old brother to lung cancer and making a quilt for my sister's first great granddaughter, helped me cope with her sudden death at 72; as we were supposed to work on it together. God bless you and your family and my prayers are with you.