First of all I am so sorry you are going through some negative thoughts about quilting. For me, I quilt for the pleasure of it. I usually make quilts as gifts and have considered donating some as well. You could check to see if there is a Project Linus around you. I hear they are always in need of blankets either quilts, crocheted, or knitted. There are some guidelines so be sure to check those out before beginning. I hope you work through your troubles and it is my belief quilting and being creative will help with that. Maybe you should just focus on the process of quilting and why you enjoy it.