I was so intimidated by FMQ til one day I decided to sacrifice a runner & just go for it. To this day all I can do is meandering. I thought my work was sloppy but people think I'm so clever & talented. So I stopped being so critical of my work. Once a pc. is done even I think I'm pretty clever. LOL.
I just don't feel I have to be so fussy about learning the beautiful work some people do. I just want to enjoy my limits.
Why don't you just play around with meandering & move on to patterns when you feel more adventuresome?