Don't be so hard on yourself. Look at your improvement when comparing with your first quilt/or block. I have been trying not to look too closely at each motif or block that I do, but the overall effect. You are correct, sometimes it is as good as it gets, for the skill set you have now. That doesn't mean you won't continue to grow with each attempt. I love it. At least this online class has given you the baby steps and confidence to even try. Some will never try. Learning is a process. (off of soap box LOL)