Though I have lots of specific memories I've been reliving now, the early years when the four kids in our family and the four from my aunt's family would be at our house for a loud, crazy, chaotic, wonderful, yummy, noisy Christmas eve and day. Kids slept everywhere, the sleep kids sleep, while our parents partied around us. Why this memory now? My youngest cousin is rapidly slipping away with cancer. I drove to London on Thursday to visit and I reminisced and laughed with her and her older sister about those crazy happy carefree times.