Please do not be discouraged. You are overly critical of yourself. Your quilt is lovely, with a good choices of pattern and fabrics. I know I was not doing as well 2 years into quilting. After over 500 quilts and a pile of blue ribbons, I realize that I am rarely completely satisfied with a quilt, but I keep moving on. It is good that you have your friend, Becky, in your corner. You might check where you get your fabric to see if there is a guild in your area. Most guilds are very helpful and informative. You Tube has a large number of useful videos that you could check out at well. Have you found
www.quilterscache.com for free patterns? Feel very free to come back here with any questions you have.