Catjo,
I am so sorry for you and your fur baby. Breaking down at the vet is not stupid..... when my girl got Pyometria (sp) a couple of years ago I was in pieces.... I didn't want to leave her at the vets and when the vet finally told me how ill she was (he was hoping to get me out of there without telling me - he had told DH) I didn't want to leave until she had been operated on and was on the mend. Eventually they persuaded me to go home and wait...... and the vet was wonderful, he phoned me at almost midnight just to tell me she was out of surgery and recovering well.
Also, DH was sure he was in for a divorce because it was his fault she got ill. I wanted to have her spayed, but he didn't, he said that she would make a wonderful mum and she should have the chance to be one.... I didn't want that. Had she been spayed she wouldn't have been ill - the whole time she was in surgery, I was crying on and off and DH was saying, "You think it's my fault - don't you" ! I think I was very unkind as I replied... I don't think, I know it's your fault! Not a nice thing to say as he loves her too!
Still, the whole point of the story is that it is not silly to be upset, wherever you are... these babies are a big part of our lives and we love them. I will pray all goes well for your little one.
Hugs
Caroline