I used to like the holidays. Then when my husband passed away right after new years 31 years ago, I just wanted to go to sleep around Halloween and wake up after Valentine's day. I still think Valentine's day is sad for those of us alone; and just a way for the businesses to make money on cards, flowers, candy, etc. and a reminder to those of us that we 'have no one". It took me many years before I could begin to enjoy Thanksgiving and Christmas again and New Years. And I too spend most ALL of them - alone. But I am now ok with it.