Glad you're not so depressed anymore
I know the feeling, when I see wonderful FMQing and realize I will never be that good. On the other hand, like you said, I don't like heavy quilting on quilts which need to keep me (or others) warm. So.....I don't think about it anymore.
I was at the LQS this afternoon, was looking for a FQ, white with black/dark grey writing on it. Found one, would have to pay over $5 for it so it's still in the shop!!