Kass and SBG are right, it takes time. Grieving is often a long process so give yourself time to feel it all. No way around it, the only healthy way is through it. No doubt it was a very difficult decision to make but you had your mother’s best interests at heart. I hope you will find some measure of comfort in that one day.
As for your hsts, you have zillions of options open for you when you are a bit more ready to sew. The swap has another two months so there’s time. Maybe you can work out some of that grief as you stitch. It’s sometimes been cathartic for me. Sometimes I zen out. I hope you’ll be able to do it as well one day soon. Hugs! And don’t be a stranger. The boomers are always ready to lend a shoulder when needed.
Originally Posted by
coullmills
[ATTACH=CONFIG]598021[/ATTACH]Dearest ladies. I apologize for not being active, I do read the page nearly everyday. Watching you all chat and banter has been a highlight many times. A couple days before we mailed our fabrics my dear mother passed away. I had to be the one to make the decision to say no more and put her on hospice, she passed quietly within hours right in my arms. I know in my mind I made the right decision but my heart was crushed. Since then I haven't sewn a stitch. Nothing has felt joyful to me. So yesterday I cleaned my sewing area and I made a batch of HST to play with, these are a few of the possibilities. Today I'm going to do a little more.
I promise I haven't forgotten you all and your beautiful fabrics I will get them done, they may not be fancy as my brain still feels foggy.