BARES

Right after I registered my brother-in-law dropped dead of a heart attack. He was 36 yrs old and had never seemingly been sick. Then I got a dx of a major illness. Had to quit my job and go on disability. The meds played hell with my body - major depression followed. I spent time in the hospital for surgery, etc. Then a year and a half ago I lost a friend that was like a father in April, my mother died in June, my sister died in July, a friend died in September, I fell and majorly injured my butt and back in October, November another friend died, December another brother died, and hubbys youngest brother committed the big S. He was 2 years old when hubby and I married and in January a woman that was like a second mom died. I also lost my precious kitty Boo, three years ago and it took a year before I found out he died. He meant more to me than anything else I have. I finally feel like I am starting to live again.

The meds slowed down my metabolism and I gained weight. I got up to almost 300 lbs. I am not blaming the meds, but it would have been nice to know my system was slower. I could have had the opportunity to change my eating habits. (I may not have -- probably wouldn't have -- eaten less but I would have known). My hair fell out and people who "loved" me treated me like I was too stupid to have anything valuable to share. So I avoided everyone and everything. I certainly didn't want to try to 'talk' on a message board where I didn't know anyone, and didn't want criticism from strangers. That would have been my impression in my frame of mind. I feel like I am finally starting to live again.

So that is my story -- in a nutshell.


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