IrishRose, good luck with your surgery. I am a 4 year survivor of BC, with double mastectomy, radiation, and reconstruction. Then 2 months after reconstruction I got an infection around one of the implants and had to have it removed. But I survived a very tough year. Just hang in there and know that life CAN get better. It was about 3 or 4 weeks before my surgeon let me sew, but once I could make my cancer quilt out of Hunks fabric I was able to move past the trauma and get on with life. Every day I wake up and thank the heavens that I am still here. As a way of thanks I make lap quilts for the cancer center to raffle off to the chemo patients. And it is a great way to bust the stash.