First of all relaxxxxx .... and breeeeeeeeathe deep!
Feel better?
Patterns can be intimidating, for sure!
It wouldn't be the first pattern that is on steroids
with a designer in overdrive trying to make it perfect ... and only killing your enthusiasm!
I hate reading patterns, and often only use them as a reference.
However, without seeing what you are trying to make, it's hard to give you truly relevant suggestions.
Perhaps you could share a link as to what pattern you are talking about?
Then more of us can help you!
Good Luck!