When I was teaching my daughter as a teen, she kept getting frustrated and stopping...she had very high expectations for a beginner...I had to pull out my first FMQ quilts and show her..nobody starts out great..the idea is to start. Pull out your first FMQ quilt, and your most recent and compare them, I'd bet you have improved, just not at the pace you think! Just keep watching videos and practicing and it will click for you!We are our own toughest critics. Take a piece to a quilt shop, sometimes some advice from people actually seeing your work can help. Look into FMQ classes at a local shop, you'll get a lot out of it.