You are not alone, I have quilted around 50 quilts and I can not fmq, I know I can't and I will not try anymore. I use rulers, sitd and use pantograph patterns . I am happy with this and like what I have done when I finish. This is all that matters in the long run. Many tell me I need to grow in my quilting, but I am a stiff quilter.I would only hate what I had done and then spend many hours picking it all out. So try rulers, patterns, sitd in the end just be happy with what you do.