Oh how terrible! Hope you’re doing better soon. I used to cross stitch A LOT, but it’s quite frustrating now with my old eyes and not being able to count out the holes correctly anymore.
If you’re looking for things to watch, there are some fun YouTubes out there called “floss tubes” where they talk about their cross stitching, or sometimes talk while they’re doing it. A couple of my favorites are 1) the Fat Quarter Shop floss tube; and 2) Stitch All The Things - she’s especially fun because she quilts too.