You are not alone! I have taken classes both in person and online and have practiced a lot. I still find free motion very stressful. And no fun! So I have decided that, when a quilt merits curves, I will "quilt by check" and let someone else longarm it. I quilt with my walking foot and feel a lot less stress about it. And the quilts come out unique and good, too. When I want a little embellishing, I do some hand quilting.