My thoughts and prayers are with you. I know what it is like to know that you are supposed to do something but be unable to do it. I just got my Christmas decorations put away 2 weeks ago. I think it is wonderful that you are able to see your blessings, sometimes even those are so hidden by the way we feel. I agree with those who say to contact a doctor. Sometimes we can't pull up by ourselves and need help. I hope the days to come will be better. I know the work I do with the rescue kitties give me a purpose and make me feel needed. God bless you, you are in my prayers.
Wendy B