You hang in there! Sounds like things are ovewhelming you right now, and I can surely understand why. You have my compassion friend, I know how you feel and so understand. Think of everyone who LOVES YOU and makes you happy!! That is one thing I do when I am feeling down - it does help to remember that you ARE loved and a VERY SPECIAL WOMAN. Take care and please keep me posted. You will be in my thoughts. char